Today would have been my 20th wedding anniversary. BvP texted me shortly after Max's passing last summer and he's doing very well. Even though we're apart longer than we were together, I can't ignore the date. Twenty years was a long time ago. The ride with you was worth the fall, my friend. I wish you the best of everything. ...
Happy birthday, BvP
I haven't talked to him in years, and that's okay, because these things happen. I couldn't even tell you where he's living. But today is his birthday, and he's been heavy on my mind the last few days. I don't know why. So I'll put this out there: happy birthday, BvP. I hope that you are well and your life is authentic and bountiful. ...
Five
As of today, I've been divorced five years. I didn't realize it until I was driving to Mom's tonight. And that's good -- the fact that I haven't been dwelling on/dreading this date for 3 weeks is good. I now speak of my married days like one would speak of things they did in high school or college. Or band camp. Fondly, with a touch of incredulity that it even happened. So I guess that means I've closed the cover on that installment of my life. That white satin cover with navy blue ...
14
Post-divorce anniversaries are awkward. The date itself has never failed to trigger a reaction. I know it's April 5th. It's part of my blood. I can't forget it. The strange part is that because I stopped counting each year (or in the early part, half-years), I have to do the math to figure out how many it would have been. 2011 - 1997 is 14. 14. On this day I tip my virtual hat to BvP and hope he's doing well, wherever the tides have taken him. ...
The cat days of summer
Congrats Joe from Stratford! I was at Home Depot! The store's playlist really boggled my mind. I thought that a home improvement store would have more...manly...music. (No offense to the Wandering Minstrel or any other guy who digs girly power ballads.) I was expecting George Thorogood, Bruce Springsteen or the Rolling Stones. Music that would inspire someone to take up his power tools and "git-r-done!" Instead, I get easy listening. Oh well. Had to take the picture down because of some rule ...
estate sale! everything must go!
From my cell phone!Multimedia message wts slightly used bridal headpiece. 1 cheesesteak, 1000 Linden obo. ;) ...
the ride with you was worth the fall, my friend
During lunch today I changed the last of my cards to the new (old) name. It's the one I use the most - my ATM/debit card. Yeah, I could have had it changed months ago, but I kept putting it off for one reason or the other. Mostly psychological. Because while that card still had the old name (the checking account to which it is attached was changed months ago) I could keep signing the old name. The old name with all of its syllables and loops and constant misspellings and mispronunciations.* The ...
Would've been, could've been
It's been quite a rejuvenating week so far. We had tickets to the Phillies game last night, but decided to take the financial loss and not go. Why? It was in the 30s and blustery and damp. And they lost the game in the 11th. Which means I would have tossed one or both of my shoes onto the field and been arrested. And we don't need that. The cold and damp weather's quashed my desire to go sightseeing across the river. So we've been prowling bookstores and coffee joints and doing house-y things ...
WDW: Leave a legacy
From my cell phone!Multimedia message Yay for leave a legacy,;) ...
Normalcy
Max is spending the next few days with me as contractors redo the bedrooms in the house. I want him back with me fulltime. To that end, I may abandon my dee-luxe apartment in the sky when the lease is up this summer and look for a rental with a yard. Or at the very least, an apartment lower to the ground with a balcony for us to sun on. ...
Letter to myself, six months ago
Hey. You're in a pretty bad place right now. You've never lived by yourself before. You're scared and you feel alone. (You're not alone, by the way, plenty of people have your back...you just don't see them.) I want you to know you're going to be just fine. You're going to pay all of your bills in a timely manner. You're going to switch jobs and be exponentially happier. When someone asks a question of you, your first instinct won't be to run away. Management isn't you right now. Someday it ...
I'm going to Disneyworld!!
Mom and I will be doing another crazy 4-day weekend there at the beginning of March. It's been quite a while since I stepped foot in my favorite place in the world. Yes, I was at Disneyland in July, but I was a bit distracted with "The Sundering" and all. (sigh) I never thought I'd get back to WDW. The memories will always persist and there will be ghosts of relationship past at every turn. But I'm healing. And maybe it'll be Kim 3.0 that manages to get picked to be the Grand Marshall of the ...
