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Fit Journal — March 2019

I’m taking an online class to help me be accountable w/r/t fitness: physical and emotional. This is my (tardy) monthly journal entry.

What are some of your expectations that do not match up with reality? 

I expect myself to be an all-or-nothing person. I expect to be able to, when dieting, completely give up all junk food. This isn’t the case. This NEVER has been the case. I don’t know why I think this can the case.

Let’s take my favorite snack chip ever. Cool Ranch Doritos.

Look at them.

They’re not good for me. They’re not good for anyone, really. When I try to be “Healthy Kim” I send the Doritos packing. Eventually (usually February) this backfires. Because when I ban Doritos from my life…I eventually break and eat a LOT of Doritos.

The solution for me is moderation. I can snack in moderation. I can drink wine in moderation. (Shut up, I can.) I can eat Hershey Kisses in moderation too. (But not pizza.) Therefore on Monday morning, I took the bags (yes plural, not a typo) of chips and divided them up into small serving-size packs. Done. And you know what? I’m completely fine with blowing 150 calories on 28 grams of Doritos, and I am ALSO completely fine with only eating 28 grams of Doritos. Who knew?

I knew. Why I do NOT listen to myself more boggles my own mind.

What’s working:
Water drinking, eating the lunch I bring to work, leaving desk for work, flossing, washing face, work goals

What’s not working:
Regular exercise, nail biting (lost that when the gum around my dental implant got infected), guitar practice, did not lose 3 lbs in February. AND I gained back the 2 I lost in January.

Still in it. I downloaded My Fitness Pal and to my joy, saw that it adds calories to your daily allowance according to how much you exercise. Gamechanger. Your girl Kim is extremely food-motivated. The weather is getting nicer so I can start walking again. And I’m going to scour yard sales for a crappy bike and mix that in.

And I’m going to listen to myself more.

Previous Fit Posts
February 2019: Fit Journal – February 2019
January 2019: Where have I been? What do I want?

Fit Journal – February 2019

I’m taking an online class to help me be accountable w/r/t fitness: physical and emotional. This is my monthly journal entry.

Pencils down, January is OVAH! I made a lot of mini goals for January. Time to see how it all shook all out.

What worked, and why:

Food: Water drinking. By the end of the month, I began to notice if I was behind because I was thirsty. I am eating lunch from home at least 4 out of my 5 workdays a week. Sometimes I eat my own stuff all 5 days, but knowing I can let myself off the hook for a burger across the street or whathaveyou is nice. I lasted with Dry January until 1/29 and that’s a-ok with me. Truth be told I do Dry January to make sure I can go without alcohol for a month. I can.

Spirit: I am leaving my desk for a lunch for at least 30 minutes every day. It’s not the full hour, but that break out of the office (I’m bringing my lunch downstairs to the building’s cafeteria) helps. During that time I either read or write Postcards for Voters. I blogged 10 times in 31 days of January, which isn’t 3 days a week, but was darn close.

Beauty: Nails are 90% unchewed, the face is being washed/moisturized, the teeth are still flossed. These are the easiest goals because they’re visible to others.

Work: I’m taking some free online data visualization classes which are a lot of fun. (Hi, I’m a nerd.) That goes toward my private work goals. I am also being collaborative without being a doormat, which should be everyone’s work goal.

Weight: I’m down 2 lbs. I didn’t plan on losing weight this month so hey!

100% posed

What did not work:
Fitness: For the first time in 4 years, I abandoned the 30 Days of Yoga practice. I didn’t close all of my rings every day.

Spirit: My fingers REALLY started to hurt, so I laid off of the guitar for a week, and then became ashamed that I was not practicing. I’m going to stick with a 4x/week schedule instead of 5x/week. I became more annoyed by the Apple Breathe App then I was gaining from it. I’m not exactly sure what it says about me, but I’m dropping it to 1x/day for 2 minutes instead of 2x/day for 1 minute each.

What is getting in your way for doing what is needed? Just facts, no judgments.

Time. I wake up at 5:45 am and am out of bed by 6 am every workday. There is no downtime in there – all of that is “GET READY FOR WORK” time.

If I leave work exactly on time, I get home between 5:30 pm and 5:45 pm. I’m usually in bed by 10 pm. This gives me around 4 hours at night to have dinner, do a chore or two, exercise, practice guitar, get things ready for the next day, do the hygiene thing, and spend time with WM and the dogs. On paper, this doesn’t seem like a difficult task, but in reality, I’m having a hard time making it work.

But I see people who don’t have a full-time job and they’re taking exercise classes 2/3x a week in the middle of the day, and people whose natural fitness is so high they’re starting at 15K steps a day and are aiming for 20K and I think, “well hell, if I had all of that time I’d have my rings closed too!” I’m sure people see me as a person without kids and think I have it made (although my house still requires cleaning) so I have to just settle with the fact that this is hard for everyone.

But waking up earlier to exercise is non-negotiable for me and getting out of work earlier is non-negotiable as well. I have to create more efficiencies with those 4 hours I get at night. Even if it’s Friday and I’m tired.


Boredom is GOING to become a challenge, in fitness and food. Part of the reason I failed with YwA this month is that many of the videos started with us on our backs for 5 minutes. Which SHOULD be what I adore in videos but I kept looking at my watch. And once I fell behind too many days I gave up trying to keep up.

In February I’m going to switch up my fitness with a mix of yoga videos, Total Gym, and cardio dance videos. I do not have the endurance to dance for 30 minutes straight, (stamina has always been my weakest attribute, even running in elementary school PE class would leave me winded and shaky) but it will work to close that exercise ring on days that I walk more and only need 10 minutes of SOMETHING.

I’ve been bringing mason jar salads to work each day and trying to keep that exciting by mixing in a different dressing each week. But I don’t think the novelty is going to last much longer. I need a weekly meal-prep solution that won’t leave me doing a lot of work in the mornings, but will give me the FLAVOR I crave.

Shame. If I fail at something, even my own goals that I, myself, make and that have very few if any real-life consequences oh my goodness it kills me and then I just hide from the goal for a while. Or a month. I need to get into the mindset that each day is new.

In addition to the adjusted goals for February, I have a weight loss goal of 3 lbs. Let’s do this, February.

Previous Fit Posts
January 2019: Where have I been? What do I want?

Friday 5: Just Wing It

Happy Sunday! To wind up “Operation Use a Bunch of my PTO this Summer” I don’t go back until work until Thursday.

I actually went OUT Friday night. Out. Past 11. I went to Atlantic City with Mom and my sibling who doesn’t read this blog and we had a great time.

Thinking I look all trendy but actually looking tired.

It was just like the old days, and even though a taking a family trip to AC to gamble sounds dysfunctional, well, we grew up okay. Some families go to singalongs or campouts. (Or campouts where they all sang.) Mine took me to play craps.

Fact: I love playing craps. Last night, after I dropped my 4 $20s on the table to buy in, a man dropped TWENTY ONE-HUNDRED-DOLLAR-BILLS on the table.

And on my roll I threw a five (point), a six, an ten and then a seven.

LEARN CRAPS WITH KIM: You have to put in the minimum bet to play. On a person’s first throw of the dice, if they throw a 2, 3, or 12, that’s craps and everyone loses that come-out bet. If they throw a 7 or 11 and you’re not playing asshole bets (long story), you win. Any other number they throw becomes the point, and your goal (if you’re not playing the asshole way) is for them to roll that number again before they throw a seven. Seven ends the game. You can also bet money on other numbers that you want them to hit before they throw a seven. You can also bet on different ways to hit a number, like rolling two fours to make an 8. I’ve found plenty of ways to lose money at the craps table. I’m good at it!

While I lost $30, he lost about $400 so I guess you can count that as me striking out mightily against the rich. While really being jealous because I’d love to dress up like Janet Snakehole and toss 2K on a craps table.

Yesterday WM and I were determined to earn the Apple Fitness National Parks Challenge Badge, which required a 50 minute workout. We went to the mall (air conditioned, flat, smells like Cinnabon) and walked three miles. And then we came home and walked the dogs. I was destroyed by the end of the day. But we earned this:

Yes, it’s not really a badge, but a picture of a badge. Don’t care.

Apple would make a killing if they could sell these badges as pins.

Time for the Friday 5. This week’s theme is Just Wing It. Let’s get to it!

1. What’s something for which you are waiting your tern?
I keep telling WM that I want to get a summer off from work one year while he goes to work, but I don’t think that’s ever going to happen. Still, a woman can dream.

2. What have you lately gone cuckoo for?
This year I fell in love with my humble herb garden. I’m going to try to extend it into fall/winter with beets, lettuce, and garlic.

3. What’s got you feeling down?
End of summer blues. But this year I’m going to try and make this fall better, or at least not hate fall as much.

4. What’s something you acquired that was unexpectedly cheep?
Nothing. Everything we get is unexpectedly expensive. (expenguinsive?)

5. What’s that fowl smell?
Likely one of the dogs. Sorry.

Today I’m hitting up the Americans of Conscience Checklist, drying out the parsley from my raised garden (getting ready to plant lettuce), sitting out with books, and maybe dorking with the sewing machine.

And fitting in a workout, because the Fitness App says I have a 13-day streak going and I hate to lose.

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