Rabbit rabbit! And just like that it’s August. I’ve been unmotivated to write (just unmotivated, period) and it has a lot to do with the narrative around childless women not having a stake in society. The predictable defense is “oh but VP Harris is a stepmother so of COURSE she isn’t one of those childless harpies!” instead of “women without children are actual real humans so of course they have a stake in society, wtf’s wrong with you?” All of that crap plus some age-related insecurity about my appearance have me laid low.
But I refuse to let the blog suffer, so I found a good old fashioned Journaling Prompts for August page to help me out. August 1’s prompt is what are my personal and work goals for August?
At home I want to:
- watercolor paint regularly – I want to do this so badly but I have a block because I suck at it, and I hate looking at my own suck work
- schedule a blood donation
- drop unwanted things at Goodwill (I feel like all I do is get rid of things)
- visit a new-to-me-beach
- maybe even eat at a new-to-me restaurant
- not be depressed about September/fall
- plant fall crops
- find a new newsletter client for my blog, or figure out what’s going on with MailerLite
And at work I want to:
- get a procedure up and running that automatically adds members who choose to auto-renew their membership to a special segmented group. It’s not working. They are added, but not removed if they remove auto-renew. It’s like the old Roach Motel commercial
- prepare for strategic meeting in September. I have so many ideas, but not so much time to flesh out how they’d work
That list seems scant, but I have a whack of PTO to take this month to avoid losing days and I have to fit those two things in between everything else that fills my day.
And that’s it. Meh. Blah.
As far as the watercolor painting….you can only get better. But, like anything else you want to be good at, you have to fall and get back up and try again. I understand blocks with creativity very well, and find that if I just get started, no matter how badly, it usually gets better. Otherwise, it goes into the trash, and I get out a new piece of paper and go at it again. There’s no such thing as a wanna be artist. Everyone has talent. It’s the comparing yourself to others that causes all the angst. So, just do it, it’s good for your soul — Kurt Vonnegut.
This weekend it’s going to be hot and stormy so I’m going to definitely carve time to put colors on paper, no matter what. Thank you. <3